Kundalini
Sadhana: A
fine art of Healing
My
dear friends,
I am writing to tell you about healing.
Usually we make two mistakes. One is that we think with the mind. Second is that
we think using language which linearizes the thought. The very first of
Patanjali's yoga sutras says, "stop the vortices of thoughts. Stop thinking
about the same things again and again, going in circuits. That is Yoga."
The grand question is how can one stop thinking?
I would like to say that we don't have to stop thinking, but we do have to think
in a different way. We normally think with the mind. Stop that. Instead, think
with the body. Think with the body? Yes, think with the body. Shift the thinking
to a place other than the mind. Where else than body? (Well, there are other
answers, but for the moment this answer will do.)
We have to understand that there is an intelligence in the body. Body is also
mind. It can be aware. It is the pathway to mind. The pathways can be aware
themselves. They are the precursors to thoughts. You can easily observe the way
the vibrations, currents, vortices, feelings, move and circulate in your body.
Not only in the head, but also in various parts of your body. The paths have the
same intelligence as the mind. This is the basis of the statement: stop thinking
with the mind, start thinking with the body. Let go of the mind. Don't analyze.
Just be aware of what the body is telling you to do, do it. Then both knowing
and acting are thoughtless.
How does a child think? With the body. It has not learned language; to name,
analyze, cognize. But it is aware. It does not know fear. Become a child once
again. Unlearn what you have learned. This is where I would like to begin the
sadhana or practice.
I request the Goddess, Devi, to bless you to heal yourself. As Devi, I bless
you.
Why not ask Devi to heal you directly? Because, 1. you should have the desire to
be healed and act on it; and more important, you may not have accepted it yet,
2. You are Devi yourself. If you say no, Devi is saying no, and so Devi will not
heal you. So you alone can heal yourself.
Now, assuming you said "yes, I want to be healed," then here is the
way to act on it. Unless you act on it, healing won’t happen. The process is
quite safe, and I am with you, so don't be afraid.
Choose a comfortable place to sit or stand. Noise is the biggest distracter.
Even a clock sometimes can be quite troublesome. Choose a very quiet place which
will not disturb you. Have no witnesses. Only yourself. Don't use a chair as it
limits your freedom. An open stool is OK. Wear some thing very light and loose.
Wearing nothing is best, if you are comfortable with it. Draw a circle around
you, saying, nothing bad can enter here. Imagine a firewall around you like a
globe. You are in the center of the 4 dimensional (3 dimensions of space and 1
dimension of time) fireball. Say, "I am full of energy here and now. I have
nothing to worry or be afraid of right now. I am not in time any more."
(Note: I have chosen a 4d fire ball so that astral entities who know the fine
arts of moving in time also can't disturb you, and you are freed from fear.)
I am the Shakti in You. I am working in You. I am you.
Give yourself permission to move. Now start moving your head and neck slowly,
ever so slowly that you hardly perceive it, but you know you are moving it.
Never force yourself beyond the point of comfort.
Keep moving. The energy inside you will direct you to move in certain ways.
Totally unpredictable. Can you predict how the smoke coming out of a lighted
agarbatti (incense stick) dances in convective patterns in a still place? All
such ways are OK. Keep releasing tensions. Let the body do the thinking. Give it
a chance to think. Your body has an in-built intelligence. Let it work. Become
totally aware of the part of your body that is doing the moving under the
guidance of an unknown force. The unknown force is the innate intelligence of
the body.
Move your neck. After some time (you will know when) start moving your hands.
Move them any way you like. They are the healing hands. Move them over your
body, ever so lightly. Feel the touch, the warmth sensually. Give yourself
permission to be sensual. Feel the energy pulsating in the contact between your
hands and your body.
Move like a wave. Or a snake. Poised, ready to strike. Move your head like a
snake. You are the snake. A snake is not afraid of a snake, is it? It is itself.
What is there to be afraid of? Yourself? It is the healing energy that feels
like a snake - lithe, subtle, forceful, capable of infinite variations in
expressions. All your fingers have collapsed to a single tip like a bud of a
flower.
Give an energy bath to all parts of yourself with your hands. All parts. Feel
the vibrant white light flowing through them.
Do this as long as you like. A typical session may last 20 to 30 minutes. Then
thank yourself, your Guru, Devi, and your environment. Then get out of the
body-thinking mode, out of the fireball, into the world of time. Into the world
of language. Into the world of linear thinking with the head.
You will start seeing and experiencing the power of this technique. You will be alive,
healed. Your mind rested. Body healed. Thankful you are alive. Pleased. Peace
within you radiates to others. You will be noticed. You will help others without
fear of losing what you have. You will have known the truth, I = world I see.
Soham.
In normal transactions, you lose what you give. But can you lose if you are
everyone and to whom can you give? Or receive from whom? If there is a
transaction, it is
between yourself and yourself. Like having two bank accounts, money just moved
from one to the other. You haven't gained, you haven't lost. Lakshmi is
Saraswati. The more you give, the more you get. You can't give without getting
it back. Then fear of loss of money goes. For this to happen, you must know who
you are. Now you know that you are everyone. The more you love, the more you are
loved. All love is total “Self”ishness. It is only loving oneself. Because
there is none other.
Even death can't catch you. When you are seeing your funeral through the eyes of
the others, are you dead or alive? You can't die. Death is a lie. So, fear of
death goes. You are permanently dead or permanently alive. Both mean the same
thing. You have moved from being an asura to a sura; one who is wanting
immortality to one who is immortal. You were already immortal; but thought you
were mortal; so you sought immortality; gods cannot give you that; they cheat
you; finally, only you can give yourself that; by becoming aware that the last
step was the first step; that you are already where you wanted to be.
Yes, that is all it takes to heal. You will feel the powerful healing that has
taken place. You feel a new awareness permeating every move you make; poised,
purposeful. You will not want to create any turbulence. Even when you open a
faucet, you will want to make the water flow smoothly, because you have become
aware of the violence in a turbulent flow. You will prefer harmony to
disharmony. Order to chaos. Naturally. You will be a source of joy to others.
Loved, respected, accepted everywhere.
You will become sensitive to other's misery, suffer with them like Jesus.
"O God, forgive them, for they know not what they are doing." Or be
like Krishna. Enjoy the Gopis, the beauties in the world.
Is suffering inevitable? No. You can choose to suffer with others. Or choose to
enjoy with others. The choice is yours. What is your take?
We want to heal those who want to be healed. And enjoy those who are healed.
Jesus healed is Krishna. That is why East and West together sing, Christna,
Christna. Combines both, sort of.
Enjoy yourself. Healing is loving yourself. The world is yourself. So you will
naturally love the world. And the world loves you. Abundance is yours. Without
asking for it, begging for it. Without negotiating for it.
This is the message of the Goddess. This is the revelation. It reveals you to
yourself. It is the mirror to what you were and also to what you can be. It
looks into the past, and into the future at once. It goes beyond the
straitjacket of time slotting.